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Monday, January 10, 2011

Finding Out

I missed it. My monthly visitor, that is. I thought that I was pregnant earlier in the week, so I took a home pregnancy test. I thought I saw a vertical line try to show up, but it was so faint! I could have been seeing things or making it up in my mind. Plus, it really was too early for a home pregnancy test to show accurately. We have been trying for a little over 2 years now, so why would this month be any different? Still, I knew that if I didn't have a period by Friday, that I should retake the test. So,Thursday night I went to bed, knowing that first thing in the morning I would try again. My mind reeled with the thought of this actually happening. I laid in bed, staring at the ceiling, while Derek slept like a baby. I hadn't told him my suspicions, because I wanted to know for sure first. Of course, he didn't have any trouble sleeping. I think I looked at the clock almost every hour. I fell asleep sometime after 3 a.m. Then, I woke up a little after 5. Yay! It's time! I got up, went to the bathroom and took the test. I waited. And watched. The vertical line started to show! It was definitely a plus sign! Praise God! I go and find a little box, put the test stick in it and place a red bow on top. I take it with me and crawl back in bed.

Me: Whispering..."Derek."

Patting him on the arm..."Derek. Are you awake?"

Derek: "Hmmm."

Me: "Sweetie, wake up. You have to look at something."

I turn on the light. He sits up with his eyes barely open.

Derek: "What is it?"

Me: "Open it."

Derek: He opens the box and stares in. "What does it say?"

Me: "It's positive..............Aren't you excited?"

Derek: Smiles, still squinting..."Yes."

I turn the light off and we snuggle up together. It's the best New Year's Eve ever.


Thursday, November 19, 2009

Is blogging a thing of the past? =)

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

2009

This blog was inspired by some questions that Chet Snyder posed at a recent small group bible study. After a few weeks (and some admitted boredom), I decided to answer these. Maybe this will start me in a positive direction for the year.

One thing I want to change in the year 2009 about….

the world…

There are few things I can do to change this world in and of myself, but I can change the things in and of myself to make this a better world. I want to see my brothers and sisters throughout the world as God sees them. I want to be a citizen of the world, as much as I am a citizen of the United States. I want to have a heart for ALL of God’s people, and stop the selfishness that American “patriotism” can bring. Most importantly, I want to live as a citizen of the Kingdom of God, which resides across the globe.

this country…

As a citizen of this greatly blessed nation, my views and actions are a part of this nation as much as I am a part of it. I would like to see this country be the “United” States of America, as the name suggests. In order to do that, we have to lay down our differences and work together to uphold the freedom and blessings we enjoy as Americans. My part in this, in 2009, is to respect the ideas and beliefs of others, to look beyond party lines and to see truth through the eyes of God.

The Church…

There are many things that I dream of seeing happen within The Church. Many I believe I won’t see until Christ’s return, when His Kingdom comes together under one Leader. I can’t wait for that to happen! One small thing I would like to see change in the Church, this year, is for the local churches in the Fairfield community to come together as The Church, more than we currently do. I would like to see members of the Body of Christ in our community, looking beyond denominational boundaries to become the Kingdom of God. I’m not sure how to bring this about, but churches need to step beyond their walls and become a Family.

my local Church…

My prayer is that, this year, our local Church will begin to spend less time and resources on ourselves, and more of those on “the aliens, the fatherless and the widows”. I would like to see our resources going out to those in need, more than it goes into our building and our programs. And, those resources should be followed by the love of Christ reaching those people through those in our Church, ministering to them face to face.

myself…

I want to regain my intimate relationship with God. Somewhere along the way, busy-ness has crept in and I find myself no longer seeking the will of God in my life. Just saying that I want to do His will is not enough. I need to daily seek His will and listen for His voice in every situation that comes my way. I need to start looking at God and listening to Him, as we walk this road together. Instead, I have been hurrying along with my ear buds in, music and noise blaring, while God patiently walks alongside, just waiting for me to look His way. I need to remember my first Love.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I'm stealing/sharing this from "Wrecked for the Ordinary". In our constant search for "church", I found this relevant. Comments by me, in green.


"What's Wrong With Church - Me
3/1/2008
by Jeff Goins

Church is such an amorphous term these days. Is it a home group, community, mission activity, or a worship service? Of course, we know that we are the Church, the body of Christ. But church - or, perhaps, better said, fellowship - means something different to everyone. However you do church, the fact remains that we need corporate worship. As members of this cosmic family, we can't really do with out it, so that leaves us in a bit of a quandary... because, frankly, sometimes I can hardly stand church.

Our culture, especially twenty-somethings, esteems individualism far too much. Whether we can afford it or not, many of us live on our own. Those of us who are Christians believe in biblical principles, but almost equally so, we believe in our independence. Private faith. Private worship. Don't interfere, or we'll call you "dogmatic." Nonetheless, we are all looking for something to give our lives to.

Am I willing to die for church? A building? A potluck? Lately, I’ve grown critical of the whole institution, and I'm learning that I'm really the one to blame in all of this. As I'm lulled into apathy, I become resentful at the church when really it was I who chose to let church become a passive activity. (Guilty.)

A year ago, I took a fifteen-day trip to Mexico. I like how Mexicans do church. I like that I was challenged. I like that we sang the same worship song, incessantly jumping up and down, for at least eight minutes. I’m told that the average limit to a song in American churches is about three and a half minutes. Otherwise, people just get bored. I think that they already are. (That's exactly the problem. We're bored before we every step in the "sanctuary". If we really meant what we were singing, we would never tire of praising our God.)

In Mexico, by the time the preacher went up to preach, we were all sweaty and disgusting and didn’t realize that an hour of the service had already passed. The sermon did not have three points; there was no Powerpoint or fill-in-the-blank bulletin; and it did not stay in the 30-40 minute window. It was long, passionate, and sloppy. And ten people got saved.

While we in America are debating about the "age of accountability," Jesus is transforming lives in Mexico.

So, I got back from my trip to Latin America and fell into the familiar slump of seeking to be entertained at church. It wasn't doing life together, and it wasn't a celebration. It was my opportunity to pick apart other people and pretend that I knew whether they were being authentic or not. This spirit of judgment did not just surface in the church building, but in daily encounters with other believers.

As good Westerners, we're trained to be critical, aren't we? And church is no exception. If you live in the Bible Belt like me, it can even be a frequent topic of Sunday afternoon conversation. (Wow. I am so guilty of INDULGING in this form of recreation! I see how intelligent I can make myself seem, by tearing others down. Help me, Jesus.)

For those of us who are cultured, we call it an appreciation of "good art" and justify all kinds of nasty thoughts regarding our brothers and sisters in Christ. The truth is, I'm not looking for good art. I'm not looking for a great show or even an inspirational sermon. Sure, there's the temptation to "grade" my pastor or measure up other Christians, but what I'm really looking for is real fellowship.

Because deep down inside, I know I'm fake. Spending a church service in a seemingly disingenuous environment exposes my own selfishness in worship, my own religiosity in corporate prayer, and my convoluted desires towards God. And I don't want to be that way. I need to be amongst a group of believers that will call me out of my starvation for truth and into authenticity.

It was a breath of fresh air when I started visiting the Hispanic service at my church. I admit that I was attempting to relive my experience in Mexico by surrounding myself with the culture - at least, for a couple hours each week. At this church, everyone brought something to share. I even played a song on my guitar. Let me say that again: everyone brought something to share. This may not seem novel to you, but this was it for me. Church, with a big "C" or a little one.

When the Body of Christ comes together and shares its different talents and unique abilities, God himself is glorified, and his children are grown. You see, this is how the Body was meant to work - how it was meant to function. We're not supposed to come together and take a passive stance, being talked at and taught, so that we can store up clever cliches and acronyms with little practical value. (Amen!) Worship is work. The strength of corporate worship is actualized when we work together - not looking to our pastor to referee the show, but each doing something to get the Body's blood flowing. And the only way to make that happen is to move some parts.

We're supposed to gather and share. Really share - everything from our money to our possessions to our talents. Last time I was at the Hispanic church, it was a short testimony, an a cappella hymn, and a poem being read aloud. It wasn't eloquent or well-orchetrasted, but it was fellowship.

And I'm hooked."

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Give Me Your Eyes -by Brandon Heath

Looked down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touched down on the cold black tile
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breath in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos
Are those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?

Chorus:
Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
Wasnt it far beyond my reach?
Give me your heart for the once forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
again
again
yeah
yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide whats underneath
Theres a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
To ashamed to tell his wife
Hes out of work
Hes buying time
Are those people going somewhere?
Why have I never cared?

Chorus

Ive Been there a million times
A couple of million eyes
Just moving past me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
Well I want a second glance
So give me a second chance
To see the way you see the people all alone

Chorus (x2)

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Another thing......

It just hit me as I was falling asleep the other night. I was saying my normal bedtime prayers and I remembered all of the prayers I had said over the years for God to give me a husband. I don't know how many nights I spent in tears, praying for God to give me a partner to share my life with. It just hit me (after being married now for 10 months), that God answered my prayers! And, it was made perfectly clear why I had to wait all of those years. It was because God was changing and preparing my heart for "such a time as this". My husband is an amazing gift from God and I can never thank Him enough for placing Derek in my life.

What I Believe

So, I've been reading the book "Blue Like Jazz" by Don Miller. Loving it! But, it is really challenging me. His friend tells him that what you believe is what you do, not what you say. Not a mind-blowing concept, right? Wrong! I talk about believing a lot of things. I think about what I believe all the time. But, do I really believe what I think I do? Or what I want to? For instance, I say I believe in helping people (the poor, hungry, spiritually lost...), but I go about the majority of my days doing nothing to help them. What does that say about what I really believe? It says I don't really care about those people. Maybe I don't. I mean, I was born a selfish being wanting nothing but for my own needs to be met. Have I really changed that much from when I was born? Aren't I still screaming and crying "Take care of me! Love me! Pay attention to me! Feed me!" I've been thinking about this over the past week. Wondering how I can change what I believe.....who I am. Of course, I can't. I can't do a thing about who I am, but God can. He has changed many things in me since I've known Him. He has so much more to change though. I don't want to forget that I still need Him. I don't want to come to a point where I think I'm "good". I always want Him to be changing me. I want to be more and more like Christ. So, I need to keep praying for God to change my heart. My insides have to change in order for my actions to change and affect the world. I want to believe that I care about others like Christ does, but if I'm honest, I'm just not there yet. I need God to change what I believe.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Happy Father's Day, Dad!

Me and my poppy...

Tree Progress

Things are getting back to normal in the Demaret backyard. Here are some pics of the cleanup.

The gazebo has been replaced...


















Derek splitting wood








































































And jumping to a more recent pic.....Dad and Derek have rebuilt the storage shed...

Sunday, May 11, 2008

And it fell....




































I have a lot more pictures, but you get the idea. My backyard is a tree!!!

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Icy, falling trees

Here's the lovely tree that tried to take out our little storage shed last week.

















Sunday, March 02, 2008

Friday Night

Friday night I went bowling with the Sunday school class at church. I brought Jenn along too. =) So, here are some pics from that. I always have problems blinking when people are taking pictures of me.....and I was having REAL problems with it this night. Anyways, I had fun! I really suck at bowling and this night was no exception, but it was still fun. Oh, and I stole these pics off of Sarah's myspace page, so this is courtesy of Sarah's photography. =)


Here's a couple pics of Jenn, me and Sarah...





























Me and Derek















Also, today (Sunday) was beautiful. It was so warm!!! Praise God for warm weather!

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Snow

It was snowing when we woke up this morning! Here are some pictures......it's really pretty. =)
















There's my sweetie, shoveling snow...




















































Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Looking Good for Jesus

Ok, I know this is wrong, but hilarious!!!


Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Christmas 2007 Pictures





















Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Bailey is getting excited about Christmas!!!


Monday, November 26, 2007

Happy Thanksgiving

I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving! I enjoyed having a couple of days off work and going shopping. And, I'm thankful for a lot. I'm thankful that I am married to the best new hubby ever! =) I'm thankful that I'm healthy - that so far in my life, I have woke up every morning with breath in my lungs and with rhythm in my heart. I'm thankful for my job, which pays for my home and everything in it. I'm thankful for my family, through blood and in Christ. I'm thankful that I live in a country that enjoys the freedom to worship as we choose. I am thankful that my soul is saved for eternity by Christ's ultimate sacrifice. And, I am thankful that Jesus walks with me daily as a friend and comforter. I'm thankful.

Our annual picture on the couch...

Thursday, November 15, 2007

I'm sick of this crap.

"'Do you think I came to bring peace on earth? No, I tell you, but division. From now on there will be five in one family divided against each other, three against two and two against three. They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother, mother-in-law against daughter-in-law and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law.'" -Luke 12:51-53

I have been thinking about this today. I recently heard a fellow Christian make reference to this verse to describe the divisions within the church. He used the scripture to explain why there is so much arguing and disagreement in the church body. At the time, I think I blindly nodded in agreement that, yes, Jesus did not promise peace. But, I think that I was wrong in thinking that applied to the church. Jesus promised division, but I think that was in reference to division between believers and non-believers. I don't think that Jesus meant to bring division between his followers. Christians should be united in the grace given to us through the blood of Christ, which has saved our souls. I cannot allow the above verse to excuse away the responsibility that we as Christians have to strive for peace and unity. I can't sit idly by and say, "Yeah, none of us get along, but then Jesus said that would happen. Oh well." I don't think any of us can! Have we forgotten the commandment?

"The most important one," answered Jesus, "is this: 'Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.' The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no commandment greater than these." -Mark 12:29-31

And, I just noticed something! I never saw this before. But, in that scripture, Jesus lists two actual commandments - "the most important one" and "the second is this" - yet, his last statement says "There is no COMMANDMENT greater than these." (emphasis added). Commandment. Singular. He speaks of two things, but calls them a commandment instead of commandments. It's like the two things are one thing. If you love the Lord, you love your neighbor. You can't love your neighbor unless you love the Lord. They go hand in hand. You can't do one without the other. If that's the case, we had better be loving our neighbors, RIGHT?! And, that definitely includes our brother and sisters in Christ.

"If a kingdom is divided against itself, that kingdom cannot stand." -Mark 3:24

"If a house is divided against itself, that house cannot stand." -Mark 3:25

I don't know what our problem is. I'm not saying that every Christian will see issues in the same light. We won't agree on everything. We don't have to! But, we do agree that Jesus Christ is Savior and Lord. And, because of that, all other things should go by the wayside. The things I have been seeing within the Body of Christ have broken my heart. I'm guessing God's heart is broken also.

Friday, November 02, 2007

Something for us to remember...

"But the plans of the LORD stand firm forever, the purposes of his heart through all generations." Psalm 33:11

Something for us to pray...

"May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD, even as we put our hope in you." Psalm 33:22

Friday, October 26, 2007


I love vanilla pepsi from Taco Tierra! There are just some things in life (often caffeinated beverages) that make me giddy inside. Thank God for vanilla pepsi!

Ok, so yeah, I'm at work and I'm bored. My coworker left me for the day and there is not a whole lot to do, so I'm trying to entertain myself.

This weekend is Judgment House at church. I'm excited! I hope people are touched by it. Hope everyone has a good weekend!

Friday, September 28, 2007

Just call me Mrs. Demaret

The "WOW" dress!



















Mom and I













Me and Sis













The three of us!













Stace and I













Skyler and Bon













Larissa and Sarah













Our beautiful cake



















Mom













Me and Dad



















Michelle and Geoff



















Mr. and Mrs. Demaret

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Oh, I dunno.....

I had sort-of a vision in Sunday School a couple of weeks ago. I envisioned seeing the view of the world on Sunday morning from God’s perspective (as if I can even imagine His perspective). It was as if I were looking down on the world…….and people were all walking into churches. And, I felt sad. God felt sad. People were walking into churches and closing the doors behind them. I’ve been holding this thought in my mind, trying to figure out what would really be sad about people going to church. People go to church to worship God, right? Or……..is that the problem. Why do we go to church? I’ve had these anti-church feelings welling up inside of me for several months now. And, I think my problem is how the word “church” is used. What is a church? A building that we go to, where there is a cross hanging on the back wall, where we sing songs and listen to a sermon? Why would I want to participate in that? Where is God in all of it? Oh, I know He’s there. But, does everyone else? Do the people sitting in the pews know that He’s right beside them? Does the pastor realize that the words he is speaking are representative of the very God who wants to reach the people through him? Or is it all a show? Do the church-goers want to impress each other and the pastor with their “good” lives? I mean, they are at “church”, right? Is there a secret contest between pastors to see who can grow the biggest church? I think that it saddens God that instead of us waking up in the morning and embracing Him and His love, we rush off to a building we call “church”. A responsibility. A recreational facility. We walk away from our relationship with the Father. I’m not saying that going to “church” is a bad thing. I just think we all need to readjust our thoughts on what the church really is. God’s Church. God’s people. People who love the Lord and love each other. It’s more simple than we make it. Come as you are WHERE you are. Don’t close the door of the church on Him (metaphorically speaking). Take Him with you wherever you go. Better yet, go where He’s at!

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

First Baptist Shower

Here are a couple of pics from the shower First Baptist Church had for us on 8/18/07.

Derek and I....
















That's my mom, Derek's Grandma Bernadine, Derek and I, my Grandma Clarabelle, Derek's Grandma Neva and his mom, Blenda.


Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Shower

Pics from myWedding Shower the girls had for me this past Saturday.

Me and my bridesmaids...














Me and my Maid of Honor...














Me and Stace...














There's Stace and her cute baby boy!!!














Me and Alex...














Me, Bon, Ang, Stace and Alex, hanging out afterward.














My soon-to-be new mom-in-law, me and my mommy...














My soon-to-be new hubby and me!!!














I had a really awesome weekend. I feel so blessed!