This is it.

Psalm 15

1 LORD, who may dwell in your sanctuary?
Who may live on your holy hill?

2 He whose walk is blameless
and who does what is righteous,
who speaks the truth from his heart

3 and has no slander on his tongue,
who does his neighbor no wrong
and casts no slur on his fellowman,

4 who despises a vile man
but honors those who fear the LORD,
who keeps his oath
even when it hurts,

5 who lends his money without usury
and does not accept a bribe against the innocent.
He who does these things
will never be shaken.

AND

Matthew 5:8:

8 Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.

This is what I want. I want to see God. I don't want to live my life day after day without purpose. I don't want to go to work every day and see things in the natural.....as tasks that have to be done just so that I can get a paycheck every two weeks. I want to see through the four walls of my office and see what God is doing there. He's doing something! I know it! But I can't see it if I'm covered in my old self. I don't want to go to church on Sunday because it is something that I SHOULD do, because that is what good people do and it looks good.....or because it is a social event, or even because I just enjoy it. I want to go there and hear God speak to His people. I want to SEE His work within us and watch as He sends us out as an army to fight His war.

I want to live on His holy hill and dwell in His sanctuary.