What I really want is to be able to be myself. I don't want to pretend to be different things among different crowds. I don't want to have to seem more interesting or intelligent or outgoing than I am. Although I love beauty and find nothing wrong with striving for it, I want to feel like I'm beautiful even without the makeup. I also want to be more than just pretty. I don't want to have to play any roles that the world expects me to play because I'm a woman or single or Christian, etc. I want to be able to get emotional without scaring people away and sometimes be emotionless without having someone think I'm heartless. I am not really a warm, touchy-feely person, but I try. I have a hard time expressing my thoughts and feelings because the two get all tangled and confused. I only share my heart with the select few in my life I can trust it with. I want all of that to be okay because even though I have many flaws, I deeply love others and want to be loved just because I think that is what we are here for.
posted by Amy @ 3:44 PM
4 Comments:
Such a true statement though Amy, I try to be myself around everyone. Sometimes being myself means some people may not like it, I am not a person who changes much, I am who I am. I cannot change that. People put on faces everywhere we go, in church, at work, at the local hangout or in my case at school. It takes what seems to be forever for people to show who they really are. I try not to do that, sure sometimes I might act a little different, but for the most part I am the same fun guy who loves to laugh and wants to have a good time. I don't think there is anything wrong with one being who they are, if people don't like it then maybe they aren’t your friends at all.
Other than the fact that I AM the "touchy-feely" kind of person, I TOTALLY relate to what you're saying. :-) I have a really hard time opening up to people unless I know them WELL--I want those deep relationships, but it takes a LONG time for me to trust someone enough to be really real with them.
And I think sometimes in the past, the "real" me has gotten lost in all the roles I've felt forced into playing by the expectations that others have for me--sometimes I was afraid I'd forgotten who I really was underneath all those layers of costumes.
God has shown me that He created me the way He did for a purpose and if I'm not being the person He made me to be, the world is missing something--I'm the only one who can reflect my part of God's character to the world around me...sometimes I have to stop and remind myself of that when I catch myself starting to step into another character.
Thanks for giving me your blog address...hope you don't mind a few random comments now and then. :-)
Yes. I agree... Don't let the world tell you how to act or that you have to be a certain way. You are great just the way you are, so let people see the real you! Have you read "Tuesdays with Morrie"? If not, you should borrow it from me. It's good & it goes along with what you were saying.
Thanks for the comments guys. And Dena, I'd love to hear what you have to say anytime!!!
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